Tonight, I found myself in a Muncie bar called Be Here Now surrounded by plaid shirts, glasses, afro’s and beers. (I may have been cooler if I wrote my natural hair natural instead of straightening it. Next time, lol.)

As a creative writing minor, I felt like I needed to do more things in regards to creative writing. I joined the writer’s community at Ball State, and they told us about this shindig. This is my first poetry reading I’ve been too (except for this artist thing cru did where they asked artist and poets to share their views about Christianity), and the last three writers were really good. There was a spoken word poet who was so active on stage. Someone did Blackout poetry and it was pretty cool. I love blackout poetry because it causes you to be more creative because you have limited words.

The photo is of Analesia, a creative writing major at ball state who I had a class with once and who is part of the Writers Community.

I want to become a better creative writer. I think I will submit something to The Broken Plate and read thing at The Writers Community.

And, just because I haven't posted my face in a while, here I am. This awkward myspace photo shows that I still exist.

I have a crush on trees

It was beautiful outside today, but after Church I found myself back inside my room. Bad decision, especially sence Summer only has a few more days left for us. The Sun said she's gonna shine whether i choose to enjoy it or not.

But it wasn’t the sun that stared me down from my window this afternoon. It was the tress and the way the light shone off of their leaves as they stubbornly held onto to the same brilliant green they sported in early may. Those leaves think that color will last forever. They swayed in the wind outside my window, showing off, flirting.

But I didn’t go out. Not this time. Don’t get me wrong, I love Summer. But she’s dying and those leaves are too.

I don’t want to get too attached to the Trees. When the cold wind creeps in no amount of determination will keep the green from turning brown. If I were to spend time with the Trees now, it would be as if a friend died instead of a stranger.

anxiety cat

I'm pretty sure I have anxiety now because I can relate to everything on the anxiety cat meme. Now i'll be anxious about possibly having anxiety.







Especially that last one. My first thought when someone comes back later than they told me they would come back from a place is that something tragic happened.

Jesus Music

So in church today, I watched a mostly white worship band try to play Kirk Franklin. (And they were actually really good.) But anyway, I just wanted to make a post about music. Worship music to be exact. I love music in general, and I love all types of music. So i wanted to share some little-known Jesus music or all kinds on my blog. Have a listen.


1. Gungor- You Have me.



I guess i'd classify this as folk music? I have been listening to a lot of Gungor lately. Their entire Beautiful Things CD is amazing, but this song just has my heart. Also listen to "Dry Bones" "Can not keep you" "God is not a white man" and "Beautiful Things."


2. The Washington Projects- you are beautiful



Moving on to R&B, have a listen to this beautiful song by The Washington Projects. Also listen to 'light up the dark' and 'you are my world.'


3. Gritz- ohh ahh



This Moving on to hip-hop, lets take a look at gritz! Such a good song.

4. Brooke Fraser- Love where is your fire



Moving into pop music, Brooke Fraser is awesome. Just listen.

5. The Rocket Summer- light



And now for rock, I'm kind of mad that i can't find a recording of this song on youtube except this hard to hear live version, because its a beautiful song. I'm not sure if this a a 'christen band' by definition but a lot of his songs have christ like themes in it, and this is song is amazing.

6. Tye Tribbett- Replace me



And now for Gospel, Tye Tribbett is amazing. Just listen.

7. The Arrows- Next Time



I don't really know what type of music to classify The Arrows in. But I like them. If you have't heard their song 'in the words of satan' look that one up on youtube as well.

8. Flyleaf- In The Dark



So I guess flyleaf would be considered rock, but a harder version of rock. Anyway, I love them. Their lyrics are so good. Just listen to the whole Memento Mori CD.

9. Kim Walker (Jesus Culture)- Can I have more of you



This song puts me in a good mood.

10. Phil Wickham- I will wait for you there



I love Phil Wickham. Listen to any of his song. Really, any.

11. Elevation Worship- Give me Faith



I'll leave you with this one.

Bucket List

- Photo of members of Urban light Community Church

I went to Urban Light Community church today with two girls from Cru and I head a wonderful word on 'what God whats on your 'bucket list.' He spoke about holding onto promise God made you instead of giving up on them when things get difficult or they seem impossible. It was just on time because I had been thinking a lot about discerning Gods will lately and how to know what is something that Gods wants or just something that you want.

The thing that stuck out to me is that how something being 'too much for you' to accomplish on your own is a clue that it might just be what God wants you do. Its okay to attempt the impossible. He wants to show His strength through our weakness. If you feel like you could do it without God, its probably not what god is asking you to do, its what you want to do. The other ways he said to discern gods will was does scripture back it up, as well as discussing it with a Godly person.

It made me think of my desire to work with young people. I do not know how exactly i want to work with young people. I do not feel like I have the skills or know how to do some of the things I want to do, but i feel like God has given me a heart for them. Also, I think some of the things He allowed me to deal with in my youth has given me a heart for them as well. I don't know how I can use the skills i've accrued as a journalism major to work with young people, but I know there are plenty of ways to do so. For instance, there are programs like Y-press with the Indianapolis Star and JAWS with The Indianapolis Recorder that teach young kids. But I'm thinking of taking an entrepreneurship class. I'm not sure why.

Anyways I decided to write a bucket list. I have no ideal if I will accomplish everything on this list, but it can't hurt to try. So here it is:

Graduate High School

Graduate College

Fly (in a plain)

Travel

Do something that allows me to work with young people in middle and high school.

Fall in love/get married

Have something I’ve written published (Not an article, something creative)

Have a mini library in my home (or just a large bookshelf full of books)

Publish a YA book (traditional or self, the publishing world is changing)

Maybe intern for a publishing house? (or, you know, work for one…)

Show people Gods love through the way I live my life.

Beautiful Day

I didn't want to miss the sun again today. It's so beautiful outside! I took some pictures while walking so that when its icy and cold and ugly and icky I can look back and remember that this is how it was then and this is how it will be again.

Ball States campus is really pretty during the summer.





In other news, i've had a pretty productive saturday morning. I went to Wal-mart, talked to my mom over the phone, started and finished my assignment for a journalism class thats due monday, spend some time in the word and in prayer, and now im blogging.

Last night, I got to catch up with my friend Ariel, who graduated last year, via Skype. I like having people who you can talk about the good and the bad with. Struggles, emotions, the good and the bad. I was reading the first camper of Romans today and it stuck out to me how important that is, talking to people about real things. I mean, thats why he was writing the letter in the first place. I met with some girls from my bible study friday for breakfast and it was good getting to know them better. Tomorrow, i'm going to Urban Light with Bithia and Eren from Cru. It's a munticultural church, and I love multicultural churches because it reminds me of Calvary Memorial in Oak ParK, IL. , the church i was apart of during project. I Really liked Calvary Memorial because it causes people to get out of their comfort zones and have unity, and i met the coolest people in the young adult group.

Check out these lovely faces. And this isn't even all of them :(



I don't know what the point of this post is, really. Maybe that people are important and trees are pretty.

The sun leapt out of the earth this morning and I missed it

The sun leapt out of the earth this morning, and I missed it. Wanted to have a few more moments of sleep. Woke up covered head to toe in a warm blanket of yellow light, seeping through my window.I guess the sun doesn’t hold grudges.

The wind kissed my head as I stepped outside, It tucked dark strands behind my left ear the way my mother use to. My mind wondered how many people have had their tears wiped away by an invisible hand, and how humans could breath with things of that nature going on every moment.

You once told me that you couldn’t see colors anymore, all the blue in your eyes had been washed out by the tears you cried while it rained so no one would notice them.

Our minds can’t take the way we’ve given our hearts away to habit. This is my prayer to the One who breathes the west wind. When the earth was thirsty You gave her a drink and we said we couldn’t see the water. Tell your angles of lighting to sock our senses back to life, carry our souls home through the winds of a hurricane. We were made stronger than we think.

I asked You this as the timeless winds of tragedy vay for our attention like a bratty child who wants you to love them. I watched wealthy businessmen walk past the homeless as they starved. I watched friends point their faces towards cell-phone screens so they wouldn’t have to pay attention to things like the sun and the starving.

I understood why she couldn’t see colors anymore.

I scatter stories like the ashes of a dead man. Maybe there’s more to life than just living? More than hurricanes and heartbreak and sleeping in. Can we change things?

I still believe that loves alive, but things like love need to be applied.

Souls faint as storms fade

The earth sleeps.